Hey lovely people I hope that you are well.
The other day my lovely friend Jen recommended that I watched the new movie on Netflix, Dumplin. I had seen the trailer when it was first released and I honestly thought that was the movie for me. I’m a sucker for uplifting movies with bigger girls in, for example – hairspray. I then saw in the trailer bloody drag queens. Now if you’ve been following me for some time you will know that I bloody love Ru Paul’s Drag Race, so I couldn’t wait to see it.
From the offset I knew this film was for me, the chubby girl not fitting in with the skinny popular girls, starting to resent them because they got all of the attention. I could tell that the main character Willowdean was going to channel my inner teenage thoughts.
I’ve always been a bigger girl so by showing these raw emotions on film, I was captivated from the start. I was sat at home on my own and turned off any distractions.
I remember those feelings of being on the bus and the popular ones saying here she comes etc. Looking back now, I really wasn’t that big, but teenagers will latch onto anything different won’t they?
What’s it all about?
The story is set in Southern America, where they have a strong pagent culture, and the girls are pitted against each other due to their personality and talent, but basically it’s all a beauty thing. spoiler alert At the end of the film, you clearly see that the prettiest girl wins and that happens so much in life.
You get to learn how Willowdean grows as a person, learns that different should be accepted and we are all unique in our own ways. I know that I have definitely learnt this over time, and i wish I could tell my past self this.
Willowdean also goes through the struggle of heartache. Whether that’s through grief or through a lovers defeat. She learns the hard way of how to grow and adapt to her surroundings, her thoughts and feelings.
Throughout the music, you really go on a Dolly Parton discography, which I was super pleased with, I mean who doesn’t love Dolly? And with the journey of Willowdean’s grief with the death of her supportive and uplifting Auntie, you find out that music really is her escapism and her saviour.
As she starts to learn about her auntie, she finds out that part of her escapism was drag and the culture of drag queens. As I said earlier, my idea of escapism is purely to put on Ru Paul’s Drag Race and sit and watch it for hours. It lets me escape all of my worries, grow as a person and treat others with kindness. With the idea that Willowdean used the drag queen culture to grow as an individual, it was really inspiring and empowering.
With the help of the drag queens, a fellow larger girl (who quite possibly is adorable) and an outcast, they all join up to take part in the pagent. You can see the judgements happen as the film goes on, and it’s clear to see that the author of the book has really experienced these emotions and thoughts.
And hey, at the end of the day she and her friend got on that bloody stage in their swimsuits because at the end of the day we are just bodies.
I am not ashamed to admit it but I cried. I was so into the movie it it wasn’t the part of the body confidence part that made me cry, it was the heartbreak scene.
Willowdean really likes a guy that she works with, he’s hot, he’s athletic, he seems to be one of the guys and I full well knew from the offset she liked him, and she had fuck all chance. I know, I have been there.
After flirting and her best friend jeering her on that he could indeed like her, she went into the denial phase of “why would he like me?”, “why would he like me because I’m fat?”, “there’s better girls out there, skinnier and prettier girls!”. And I literally just sat there and sobbed, actually sobbed.
This was my life. This was me. This is all of my denial, this is why I’m single. I felt EVERY SINGLE emotion.
Then, when he said he likes her for her, oh dear god I lost it. I am not even joking, before she even said the words, I said them before her!
“I want to be with you!” – him
Me straight away “why!!”
I can’t express those feelings or those thoughts, but I do know that the emotions that Willowdean was showing were so true and so raw and captivating.
The film made me realise that everyone is worth something, everyone should be happy in their own skin and should be loved.
I can’t wait to read the book, as now it’s one of my favourite films. In the meantime, here are some of my fave quotes from the film:
“Ive wasted a lot of time in my life. Ive thought too much about what people will say or what they’re gonna think. And sometimes it’s over silly things like going to the grocery store or going to the post office. But there have been times when I really stopped myself from doing something special. All because I was scared someone might look at me and decide I wasn’t good enough. But you don’t have to bother with that nonsense. I wasted all that time so you don’t have to.“
“There’s some kind of peace that comes with knowing that for every person who is waiting to be found, there’s someone out there searching”
“This is me. Back me up or back the fuck out”
So there you have it. Have you seen it? It’s on Netflix, but here’s a trailer if you’re unsure:
Or click here https://youtu.be/k86KDFh_q6E