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Dear future husband, this is my ‘fake’ wedding…


I am going to do the weird girl post of what I wish for my wedding in the future, I am a single girl and of course as a single girl in your mid to late 20’s you see lots of your friends becoming engaged or in long term relationships and you’re sat there as I am now watching Bridget Jones thinking …….. bugger. It has definitely become more apparent to me that I feel like I HAVE to meet someone. Of course we all have dreams as to what the day should look like, how we should feel… so, I therefore thought I would put together a group of photographs as to what my ideal wedding  would be (in my head!). Continue reading “Dear future husband, this is my ‘fake’ wedding…”

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Love Autumn

It’s that time of year again, the awkward stage between Autumn and Winter season and what is a girl to do. 


Around this time of year is where all the girlies and of course some lovely boys get out their extra thick woolly jumpers, their gorgeous new coats, hats, scarves and gloves and pre

tend to look so glamorous yet not look cold at the same time. So I thought I would put together some of the essentials which I always have around this time of year, with of course some new additions. Continue reading “Love Autumn”

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Oi Mr Retailer, us girls are different sizes you know!

large (3)Now, first things first…. I am tired, I am hungry and I am tired and a tincy wincy bit miffed. I am a size 18 girl, I have gone in the past from a size 14 (I cant remember before then, I may have been a size 12 when I was younger) to a size 20. I have gone through all the different ways in which clothing is made, what feels good on me and what really doesnt. I am currently looking for a lovely show off Christmas party dress that I can wear. I wear dresses pretty much 5 days a week without a fail, I used to be one of those girls who hated them. But it could be me, as I have gotten older or “larger” (let’s be blunt now), I have wanted that extra comfort. So instead of the tshirts that finish at the waist, I bought the ones that went past my bum. I started to not wear jeans anymore, because they were slightly a bit too tight and uncomfortable, I therefore went for loose trousers/tights/leggings. As they came out, I thought I’ll try a dress and hey presto I loved it.

I know I know I know, that everyone is different sizes, that everyone is a different shape, not every girl wants to dress the same and finally that every shop has different dress sizes…….. by the way the most ridiculous rule ever. You wouldn’t have different sizes of shoes now to suit your customers would you!!

To be fair, when. I was a size 14 I felt amazing…. I would get looks from the lovely opposite sex (haha a treat nowadays!), I felt amazing in tighter clothes and the designs were a bit more brash because I wanted to show off my figure. But then chocolate came along…. uhoh. No seriously I did get rather ill and I am a comfort eater, but my weight does fluctuate.

So currently at the moment, we have this lovely song in the charts:

*go on have a little wiggle wiggle and a sing – click on here*


And in my eyes its not about celebrating being a bigger girl, its about celebrating being a woman… but thats another story. I am fed up of finding the perfect clothes in shops and you automatically go to the back of the rail, in the depths of the darkness to find your size… OR NOT!! Most of the time its sizes 6-14, sometimes even a bloody 2. Who’s a 2, I would like to meet you, maybe we could exchange some…. body fat? lol! no no wrong wrong.

I know that this post can go the complete and opposite way, of course I do. With the beautiful smaller girls saying that “men love their curves” and “men don’t love bones” … hate that phrase yuck! Men / Girls love all shapes and sizes… otherwise this world would be bloody boring. I am sure that a lot of issues for the “smaller” girls are the same too, not finding the right clothing, the shaping, the length.. I dont know. I cant vouch for your thoughts, as I have never been there – therefore I definitely don’t want to make presumptions. But I know that no girl should be made to feel that they are the better or worse weight/size

But what really gets me, is what used to be my favourite ever shop in the world. I would forever be buying my clothes from here, and im guessing if this was seen then they may not want me back.. 😦 oh well.

New Look. 

There you go I said it. I am now a Primark, Dorothy Perkins and Select Girl. These three stores not only do they cater for the larger girls ALL AROUND THE STORE and not just in the most tiniest little area secluded off from the rest of the store, but they also stock all of their clothing from sizes 6-20+, where every size can wear the same clothing…

Seriously New Look how hard is that to do? I am forever going through the rails of their stores, then finding out that they stop at 16. So yet again, having to embarrass myself (as the shop keep moving the section and making it smaller each time I go in there) – ‘Where is the Inspired Range?’. In which one time, an employer said ‘Oh its that tiny little section at the back, there’s not much there’……………. FML.

So therefore the only other option is to go online.

I would like to just show you a comparison as to the different designs / looks / shapes and the way it is design on their website, between the Inspire range and the Standard:



I understand that some lovely ladies out there would want to show off their bodies, I understand that some girls want to hide their lumps and bumps, but to put pretty much every design (and yes this is just a snapshot!!) in a tunic dress or a skater dress is just a bit ridiculous. When they are pinched in at the waist, it of course is going to float out around the waist therefore making you look bigger. The colours especially on the top layer are so in your fact, compared to the left hand side of the dresses. 

Dear Mr Retailer, maybe we want to

– not hide our arms

– put a panel around our waist, we want to show that off!

– not wear darker shades of clothes

– pay an extra fiver for the extra size…….. not.

– try different fabrics

– show a bit of cleavage (noticed that its all high necks now)

I don’t know maybe its just me.

Of course they’re not the only store that does it, but its the one that keeps popping out at me. Oh and finally, if you are going to use models to show off your dresses – chose someone actually realistic. Someone with a double chin, someone with big boobs and with a bit of a belly. Not someone who is a Plus Size Model – aka 14 in the modelling books.

I think i’ll go to sleep now. All I will say is, where whatever you want to wear, it’s your body, do as you wish, wear what you wish, if you feel comfortable go for it, what does it matter that someone stares… you never know what they may be thinking. Plus its 10 seconds of their life of thinking a potentially mean comment, but if you are feeling fabulous and sexy, whats 10 seconds in your life.


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Autumn Snuggly Time

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It’s that time of year again, the awkward stage between Autumn and Winter season and what is a girl to do?

Around this time of year is where all the girlies and of course some lovely boys get out their extra thick woolly jumpers, their gorgeous new coats, hats, scarves and gloves and pretend to look so glamorous yet not look cold at the same time. So I thought I would put together some of the essentials which I always have around this time of year, with of course some new additions. Continue reading “Autumn Snuggly Time”

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I’ve been on holiday!! A photograph postcard

30So where have you been Miss, why haven’t you been posting?? why have you been quite?? whats been going on… I hear you say *well in my head you’re all very interested, but there could only be 1 person, so hello to you..

*on a side note, I have noticed over the past month I have become more and more like Miranda Hart… I even galloped around a park the other day. Not because someone made me, but because I had the sudden urge!!*

Anyway, off topic. The end of July, I went to one of my ultimate favourite places on Earth – Kefalos in Kos, Greece. I have been going since I was a teenager, so for the past 10 years I have enjoyed holidays here… its got that bad that the locals start recognising lol!

I therefore thought I would take you through some photos of my time and tempt you to go as well, its a relaxing holiday, I am in no way wanting or ever wanting a do something every day holiday.

By the way, all photos are mine 🙂 The one above is of the harbour at Kamari Bay, just blissful.


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I spent some ACTUAL MONEY on make up – Models Own / Max Factor #bbloggers

makeupHello I am back…. im such a bad blogger, I haven’t blogged in nearly 1 month *slaps wrists*. I will be posting about what I have been up to, as I have been up to quite a bit. But today, I thought I would blog about what I have been buying. Now considering, I am the type of girl who really doesn’t like to splurge on beauty products, I thought f**k it and I splurged. I did feel rather dirty doing it, and I hope to god that the money I spent on these products are worth it, as speaking to some staff members they were rather shocked about the nailvarnish I was wearing and especially where it was from.

First thing’s first, the nail varnish that you see in the photos is from brand “Jessie”, thats J-E-S-S-I-E not Essie, and it’s from Poundland. Absolutely love this colour and for £1 its an absolute bargain. Some come with me as I go through my lovely little buys.


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2 weeks of pure happiness – Friendship, Wireless, Brighton & more

IMG_20140630_231534 (1)Morning, afternoon and good evening – hello. God I have not done a blog post in 2 weeks, I am such a bad blogger (or am I, who made up the rules hey!?). Anyway, I have had a jammed packed 2 weeks in which I really have not had the time to relax after work to do this, as I have been pretty much cream crackered. So what have I been up to I hear you yell (I wish!), work nights out, catching up FINALLY with all my favourite girls (so freaked out right now, playing on my ipod is Girls just wanna have fun!, as I am writing about my girls) haha, Wireless Festival, Brighton days out and other activities.

Ps – the quote above is for anyone who is feeling absolute rubbish, my bff sent me it when she found out that my counsellor believes I am now suffering from low self esteem, depression and anxiety (life is brilliant!! 🙂  )

Let’s go on an adventure, if you don’t want to – check out my other blog posts.

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Shopping Haul & a rant about clothes shops #fbloggers #bbloggers

IMG_20140625_191457Helloooooo, how are you are you well and smiling today. I hope you are because its bloody miserable outside, I was awoken at 9:20 this morning by the biggest clap of thunder I had ever heard and no more thunder after that. Anyway as its payday week and I have not had a lot of time to go shopping I thought I had to go today. As tonight I have a girls night out, I needed something to wear and woohoo I could not find one single thing – BUT I did find other things 🙂

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Friday & Saturday Me days & OOTD

IMG_20140608_151440Some days you need to just have a day that is dedicated to you, parents wanted to take me out today but I have such a busy 2 weekends coming up I just wanted to have a me day. Me days are the best, you don’t have to answer to anyone, you do as you wish, you look as you want to look and you have no time limits. Normally on my days off and my me days, I have a day of getting myself more glammed up than usual and just go for a drive, music blaring, windows down and just loving life. Driving through the countryside and the streets and escaping life, but also clearing my mind on so many things that keep me awake at night. Looking over the Kent valleys makes you realise how small your life is sometimes and you have just gotta go with it. Then I came back, stupidly logged online and I was greeted with negativity on my beautiful Facebook, think im definitely going to stick to Twitter soon and my profile for only my blogging friends. Anyway, this is what I have been up to today, prepare for selfies 🙂 PS here’s another beautiful flower for my beautiful readers, from me to you xo

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Stop spending woman – shopping haul time! #primark #katemoss #plussize

IMG_20140608_152045Damn working in the town centre, I have to walk past the pretty shops and I have to try to resist the urge….. how dare you shops to be so enticing and some “you need me now!!”. Again here is a lovely flower you for the reader 🙂 I know I know I spoil you haha. Let’s have a look as to what I bought shall we……. if you’re not bothered then, have a lot at any other posts, there’s plenty to read 🙂

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