Respect and let go

Hey lovely people.

I dont think I’ve ever said on here before but in my family at the moment we are currently going through some sad times.

Last year my Nan found out that her cancer had come back for a 3rd time and this time it had spread to her lymph nodes. My nan is a bloody lovely lady and is so sweet, and when I found out it came back it just shook me. I thought she can do this, she has this down as this is her 3rd time. Continue reading “Respect and let go”

I’m still here, don’t worry…

hi all.

Sorry I’ve been so quiet on here lately. It’s not that I’ve had nothing to say, quite the opposite. I just havent had the oomph to do it.

I know that this blog post is incredibly similar to my last post but I’m getting there. I thought I’d give you a quick bullet point list of what’s been going on:

  • Mum came out of hospital after nearly being paralysed
  • My nan doesnt want to live anymore and has terminal cancer (huge thank you to all of those who tweeted me help groups)
  • My gorgeous best friends little ones are growing up and I’m loving spending time with them
  • Finally went out on a night out in over 1 year. Never felt so old.
  • Found out whatever bite me in the leg in November last year has scarred my leg.
  • Declined the opportunity to go for a job interview for a higher job role
  • Having a lot of self confidence issues and really not feeling it.
  • Trying online dating again but the above bullet point is really affecting it.
  • Making happy memories with those who I love
  • I’m really trying to learn German again and I’ve learnt that I don’t like to speak it but read and writing is fine!! Yay.

The bullet points above I know are slightly negative, but I’m getting there.

So heres a positive picture for me to focus on:

Cat – you felt amazing here and you look good.

Hope everyone is ok 💋

Don’t forget to breathe… why I’ve been quiet lately.

Hey lovelies,

You may or probably may not have noticed that I have been a little quiet on here and on social media. I’ve been a little busy lately in my own life and things have just taken over.

At work, my life has been a bit hectic, I have been moving companies (back to the company that tuped us out in the first place), it’s all happened so quickly and to be honest came out of the blue. I didnt know if my job was safe and now I know that my job role is changing, but I also have the opportunity to go up in my role… but I’m hoping that I’ve got enough confidence to go for it!!

Secondly, my mum has been seriously unwell.

Last week mid Tuesday morning around about 430am I heard the phone going off and I honestly thought “wtf is happening?” And my mum was screaming in pain.

2 hours later, she was was rushed off to hospital in an ambulance and I just didnt know what was going on. She was in incredible amount of pain, couldn’t unfortunately wee and her leg was numb. The NHS have been fucking amazing.

She ended up being transferred to a London hospital and had to have an emergency operation on her back, to remove some of her spine. We later discovered that if she didnt have operation, she would have been paralysed.

I’ve been very much stressed and the idea of doing a blog post or anything I just couldn’t be arsed. I was so incredibly tired and emotionally drained.

I do have some other shut going on but thats for another blog where I literally want to moan.

So that’s my update. Lol what have you been up to?

Celebrating my 20s – end of an chapter

Hey beauts, I hope that you had a fab Christmas and I hope that you’re still eating all of the cheese and chocolates, whilst drinking a lot of wine.

I’m currently sat writing this whilst watching Cinderella and looking at my phone every 2 minutes as my best friend is going go have a baby any minute!! I’m so excited.

As the year draws to a close, so does my 20s. This time next week i will be 30. Oh god I feel a little bit sick at the thought of it. So as I’m sat watching a Disney movie, I thought I’d reminisce over this last decade, share my favourite memories and lessons I’ve learnt.

Here we go:

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