So much happiness in a positive.

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Over the last couple of days I’ve had lots of thoughts about self motivation.  Whether this is to help yourself improve,  giving yourself a pat on the back or just getting up in the morning and saying well done…. its all very important.

Recently I’ve gone through some changes in my life that has resorted me to go “you know what, you can do it!”
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Great day out – 04.05.2014

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Today it was absolutely beautiful in Britain, days like this do not come along often enough and when it does everyone goes mad. Luckily as I live in Kent there was the Rochester Sweeps Festival. The Sweeps Festival is a colourful mix full of all things such as music, dancing, drinking and celebrating British tradition. I have been for the past 2 years and I love it. The sun shines, there are thousands of people, loads of British food and drink drink drink, along with fair ground rides and live bands.

I thought I would show you some photos from today. As well as this I wore won of my new dresses which I bought there other day – here are the other ones I bought too 🙂 >>> look at me <<< 

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First off this is the beautiful dress that I was wearing today, I personally felt amazing and I havent felt this good in a while. It’s a beautiful tea dress and the colours are just bright and lovely. It shapes you in at the waist and floats out to the sides. The tops of my arms were covered and the V neck showed off my cleavage haha 😉 The dress was great for the sunny festival look and I just yeah had a lush day.

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Here it is in a bit more of a details look whilst im in the car 🙂 The necklace is from Primark and again I reviewed that here >>> yooohoo <<< The hair was right and the make up I loved. I was ready to go!

20140504_144336Rochester Cathedral is beautiful in itself, you can go in there and have a nosey around, but it was so packed today as you can see it was hard to do. The area was packed full of little stalls, live music in the background, the smell of hamburgers/sausages/hog roasts cooking as well as everyone sunbathing all drinking beer and cider….. us British are classy 😉 Ps hello – didn’t realise I photo’d a fittie in the middle – dammit wish I saw him. Talking of seeing people I did see these two:

I saw him aka Kevin Chalky aka Tommy Knight first of all and I thought to myself, god I recognise you where the hell have I seen you before and then I saw Dynasty aka Abby Mavers and I was shocked to see them. After a bit of stalking after I got home I realised that it looks like they are an actual couple! So cute!!

20140504_143056Here’s a new photo of the Cathedral, for some reason I didnt take my photos this year but it’s such a pretty enticing place to be.

If you are familiar with British tradition, you may be aware of Morris Dancing. It’s a great tradition, many love it, many are embarrassed by it….. but I love it. I filmed a clip for you to see if you didnt know what Morris Dancing is lol enjoy!

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We then went to Chatham Dockyard and spent some time going around the shops and then went to the quayside. What a beautiful area it is, the sun was shimmering on the water, there was a lush heat, gulls were being annoying as always and it was just so peaceful. If you look closely in the 3rd photo you can see the fishes swimming around, ignore the beer can – welcome to Britain .

So that’s my day, loved being out in the sunshine and just having nothing to worry about. I also thought I would include this photo as I wore this on Friday, its a cropped top and a new necklace – again reviewed here >>> snappysnaps <<<

6Ps it is a snapchat capture hence the face and dalmatian look haha!!

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Scars are individual lines of our own storybook.

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Before I start on this blog, I just wish to state that this blog is not about self harm. If you need any help in that way or wish to speak to someone here are some numbers, websites, addresses that you should visit… keep smiling, it’s one bad day not one bad life 🙂 ❤

CLICK HERE FOR SMILES FOR THE FUTURE

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As a clumsy girl I was forever falling over at Uni and stupidly because I am very lazy I used to always go over the green to my flat instead of going on the safe pavement, but nooooooo I decided the slippery muddy grassy slope would be best. Anyway, one day I ended up falling and going onto my left side, I thought shit that hurt and went quickly back to my bedroom. 30 minutes later I had a lecture and as I was sat there my classmates said “your arm is going purple”….. it was. I was so freaked out, I couldn’t feel a thing, it was so heavy and a dead like feeling and I was just really worried. I booked an appointment with the doctor and they said it was whiplash. Months later whilst at my job (on the checkouts) it kept happening again, the dead weight feeling, purple arm and the motion that I could not feel a thing in this arm.

I was then sent to specialists and in the end we went private because it was getting worse, I therefore was sent to a specialist and they did many tests on me. I had things put in me, xrays, mri scans and so many things I cant even remember. In the end I was actually put upside down to see where my blood went, they actually found out there was a compression with my nerve/blood and bone in my neck.

As soon as my left arm was raised not even 45 degree angle, the blood stopped going to my arm and was slowing down my heart. Bloody scary, usually with this condition you are offered physiotherapy first of all but nope, me it was straight for a booking for surgery.

The condition is called Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, I apparently have had it all my life but the falls triggered it. Many sports stars have this. After my operation, it literally felt like my head was so floppy and not attached properly. Very weird and I was left with two scars, they went in and cut back the muscle to stop any compression between the blood/nerves and bone. For months after I hated my scars, after the hospital took away their bits I was left with what I saw and I hate it. I still hate it to this day. My scars have not healed properly:

IMG_0725Here are my scars. This was about 8 months after and my scars are still like this 3 years later. They cannot change them because of the scar tissue, I still to this day get looks. The scars are very raised and lumpy and they are not going down, I hate even myself touching them and I do not let anyone else touch them. There were some days in which I would be walking down the street and people would physically just stare, its not like I have tried to self harm (no offence!!) and hurt myself in that way, but thats how I felt. I felt that I was being judged. On nights out I went home early because I couldn’t cope with the looking. Halloween was my best night as I could really dress it up. But when it got to the stage where it was not just me that was noticing people staring, it was my friends as well. Some even had a go at people staring, I then thought to myself – you can either do two things here…….. think fuck it, this is my life, my body, I was very unwell or feel forever judged. I thought fuck it. 

Like I said to this day, if I am feeling down I will wear a scarf and still people in my office are noticing them and I have to explain each time but I really don’t mind people asking me. I would prefer people to ask me than to just stare. This has definitely opened up my eyes to other people’s lives, other people’s difficulties, disabilities and looks.

Do not ever judge a book by it’s cover. I urge you.

Of course we all have scars, whether mentally or physically. Whether it be through abuse (I really hope not and big hugs to you), stretch marks (having a baby or big curvalicious) or even just doing silly things like falling over – each scar is unique, each scar tells a story and that story is a chapter of your life. That chapter makes you, do not be ashamed of that chapter, you have had to grow through it and you have come out of it. Please check out this link for any helpline numbers where you livedo not feel alone – 

I still have pain every day from this, although I can now raise my arm and it doesn’t go purple yay lol… it still affects me. We all walk in different paths, we all have different lives. But in the end, we are all unique but we are all unique together. We must accept others as we wish to be accepted ourselves.

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Lips lips and more lips

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All girls love some sort of product on their lips, whether it is lipstick, lip balm, butter or moisturising balm there is always something there to make our lips look more appealing and of course more kissable 😉

I know personally I have gone through so many shades, styles, brands and products in order to find the best one for me. I like to take good care of my lips and throughout this blog I won’t really be making any judgements of particular brands that I love it will be generalised apart from three that I need to tell you about:

82510_lip_exfoliator_XLThis product is just the biz (god I can’t believe I said that), its so cheap and its very effective, plus in a really weird way it smells and tastes nice – hey you don’t want something on your lips to not taste nice (I like bonjella, but that’s another story!) It is roughly about the £3 mark as most ELF products are and mine has lasted a long time. Applying is very easy, nice and smooth on and then you get the ex-foliating particles over your lips which in turn smooths out your lips. It has a cocoa taste to it, but it’s not overpowering and I would definitely recommend to get those extra luscious lips for kissing that boy/girl.

257251_lI still to this day do not know how I came across this product, maybe going up and down the aisles of Superdrug thinking god I need a new lipstick but I have about 3 of these (in this shade). It did scare me first of all as it is purple (the shade is actually called – “Beauty UK Lipstick Snob 3” – what a name haha). It does have a matte feel to it which I love but it also has a slight shimmer, really smooth to go onto your lips and it stays for some time. As well as this it has a nice taste to the shade, not that overpowering cheap lipstick taste which you can get with some of the drug store brands and with this being priced at £3.49 it is a bargain. Don’t be afraid to go for a colour which you think will not suit you!

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My final must have is my ultimate favourite lipstick. You will find out through this post that I am not really a fan of shiny things, it took me a while to even get used to shiny nails because I love the matte look. Thank god for Kate Moss and Rimmel and thank you for the shade 107. It is a beaut of a shade, it’s not too dark, it’s not too in your face and it just oozes sexy and gives you so much confidence. You may see this shade if you ever watch the gorgeous Zoella, she uses it within the Winter time. I loved using this in the Autumn and Winter time and it just gave me the confidence especially in this time when your skin is all pale and flaky (not really nice) to show off, you are you, you are here and you are pretty no matter what people say. It is great for day time and especially night time with a gorgeous black dress.

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Anyway, the whole point of this blog was to talk about the different types of lip products that we all use, I may miss some out so I really do apologise but I am jut thinking off the top of my head so (remember I am not looking at the brand just the idea):

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Lipstains – I really do not find these effective at all, I find them really weak – they do not last long enough, the design looks amazing along with the colours which are often shown on the packaging but when they do go on your lips I find that they are just a disappointment. It could be the products that I have used and it could be the fact that I have chosen a wrong batch but I just find them to be a waste of money. Just like a felt tip pen if they decide to be stubbed or the bristles come about it’s just ridiculous. Some of them have the moisturiser at the bottom of them to add that extra shine (or to bring out the colour) but I am just not a fan.

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Lip Booms – I believe only certain brands do this type of lip product but quite similar to the double ended lip stain, this two includes two parts to make your lips look luscious. One end is the lipstick, usually the shiny kind in all different colours and then if you feel the need to glam up your lips even more there is the option to make your lips shimmer in the light. Often with the product of the lip stick on your lips is just enough for me, but with the added lip gloss sometimes it is beneficial but most of the time it just makes it a sticky mess or your lips look too full (you do not need the trout pout). Otherwise of course use one or the other and you are good to go!

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Texturised Lips (including Glitter) – I was at the Ideal Home Show last year in London and I cannot believe how many girls and women I saw going around the centre with the glitter lips, like it was complete full on glitter fest – it had looked like they had just shoved there lips into a glitter bucket with no other make up on their face and decided (LOOK AT ME BOYS MY LIPS ARE RIGHT HERE!!) The first few that I saw I thought hey okay, they look alright then after a while of seeing red, green, blue and silver lips I did think I may want to add some tinsel around their necks. Not a fan. When I was younger the idea of glitter lipstick in the tubes which you can see on the right I probably loved, they came with a Barbie for example and it didn’t matter what colour that you chose you wanted to look special. I feel that these types of products are definitely for those stand out girls, just like the hundred and thousand inspired lips/nails, I can’t even do the nails so I cannot imagine doing the lips (great for a selfie, but imagine walking about the high street with your lips just literally dropping everywhere OR flies attacking you!)

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Lip Gloss: The lip gloss, every girls go to – the shine, the effectiveness, the different colours, prices, the wands and the added extras. Each girl I am sure has their ultimate favourite, some glide on smooth, some are so sticky and thick its just unattractive, some are so light to the touch it feels like you’re wearing vaseline or lip balm and others are great just to accentuate your lips. Many lip glosses change their design over the years, there have been the additions of the light up ones (brilliant for nights out), the added mirror, the different varieties of wands, then different smells. I for one have many lipglosses and I am definitely the type who buys loads and never wears them! I cannot unfortunately find a lip gloss that I love the colour of so any recommendations would be brilliant!

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Lip “crayon”: As you can tell I don’t know the actual name of this type of product but once you get the correct colour for you they are very effective. Different brands have a variety of depths and colours, unfortunately just like a packet of crisps haha the product is big in design but not a lot of the actual lip crayon. What do you think of them?

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Lip Balms: I cannot tell you how many lip balms that I have had in my life, they are kinda like kirby grips in which they keep just going missing – do you have that as well? Anyway, lip balms come in all shapes and sizes with the new introduction of the fashionable Eos lip balms which are brilliant, small, beautiful and so cute to look at to the Smackers (flavoured as shown above – great from Primark by the way) or through to the simple lip balms such as Nivea and drugstore/supermarket own branded designs. They are amazing for the quick fix, the quick moisturising of the lips and of course if you see that person you like, add it to your lips whether slightly coloured or just wanting that extra shine they’re just brilliant.

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Lip Fixers: Whether it is Carmex, Vaseline or Burts Bees that you use they are the best for those lips that need that extra care. Those lips which often get affected by the cold, dried out by the sun (you never know) or of course for the SPF in which you see above.

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What lip products do you use the most? Which lip products do you dislike the most?

We have to look after our lips, many find them the most attractive part of our body, they are there for the gorgeous smile that you have, they are there for that first kiss, for all the kisses you have with a loved one and they are there for that beaut of a selfie you are thinking of doing. But for the love of god – STOP WITH THE POUT YOU ARE NOT A TROUT.

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