Respect and let go

Hey lovely people.

I dont think I’ve ever said on here before but in my family at the moment we are currently going through some sad times.

Last year my Nan found out that her cancer had come back for a 3rd time and this time it had spread to her lymph nodes. My nan is a bloody lovely lady and is so sweet, and when I found out it came back it just shook me. I thought she can do this, she has this down as this is her 3rd time.

But, what happened next shocked me and it’s really made me learn to respect other peoples choices. My parents and my uncle went to the hospital when my nan found out and she turned around to the doctor and said:

I don’t want to have any medication, if the cancer takes me, then I’ve had a great life.

I’ve thought of her saying this so many times in the past year and to have the courage to say she doesn’t want help, made me of course incredibly sad but respect her loads.

My grandad (her husband) passed in 2011 and throughout the last 8 years, she has seen so many of her close friends pass and I think she’s just fed up.

Over the past few months, we have all decided to rotate our calls to my nan just to see how she is. Shes in pain, she is depressed and not eating. I want to help her so much, but she keeps saying that she wants to make memories. I just find this so sad. Her character is changing and its just heartbreaking.

The worst she has ever said is:

Some days I wish that I didnt wake up

To me, I’d love to personally take her to hospital and give her the chemotherapy/ radiotherapy but I can’t. I have to respect her wishes.

So, for me it’s making sure in her time now she has the most lovely memories and is ok as she can be.

But as I’ve said before, if you have grandparents please please please love your grandparents as they will always love you.

PS I want to say the most biggest thank you EVER to all of the people who tweeted me when I asked for advice and charities for the elderly. I honestly couldn’t get over how many people responded.

Anyway, hope everyone is ok

💖

A sunny day out

Where I live we have a number of events throughout the spring summer seasons which celebrate living in Kent.

Rochester is known for its various festivals; sweeps, dickens, the Santa run just to make a few!

A few weeks ago we took my Nan on a day out to the sweeps festival. The sweeps festival is an annual tradition full of music, dancing (Morris dancing especially!), family friendly fun and the odd costume and psychic/witches.

Here’s just a few photos from that day. Ps how adorable is my fan!!!

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Don’t forget to say I love you, everyday. 

We are so busy nowadays, with the pressures of work, having the best fashion, looks, the best body and the perfect relationships that we forget about those people who love us no matter what.

No matter where you have gone in your life, where you’re going and what you want to do, your grandparents are there to support you.  They’re there to teach you, to guide you and of course love you unconditionally.

But what we often forget, we forget that as much as we are growing up, they are growing older by the day. Continue reading “Don’t forget to say I love you, everyday. “

Day 16 blog challenge: things you regret in life. 

Regrets, I’ve had a few….. sorry I’ve now got frank sinatra in my head haha. I do think we absolutely need to have regrets in our life. How can we learn from our mistakes, our misjudgement, and our history? That’s what makes us really isn’t it?

I absolutely do have a few regrets in life and some affected me in a big way.

So here we go: Continue reading “Day 16 blog challenge: things you regret in life. “

Day 15: what makes me happy

Hello lovely readers, so first of all…. IT’S MY BIRTHDAY week (5th Jan)!!!!!!!! I am of ripe old age of 28. Yes 28, I did think that my life would be very different right now, but hey that’s life.

Today’s blog is all about happiness and what a great day to do the blog as I am feeling extra happy.

Happiness is a feeling, a thought, a smell, a memory and a sensation. If you can think of one happy thought a day, it really does help.

So here we go: Continue reading “Day 15: what makes me happy”