What’s the point in my degree :(

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I am in need of a job in which I like or even love. I have had two jobs in my life and I like them after the first few months (well to be honest my first I had for 7 years – in a supermarket), but I have just had enough of being in a job where I am not getting any satisfaction out of it.

I have a degree in marketing – specialising in the Entertainment industry, I would love to work in the media industry and of course marketing but it would just mean the world to me! I wouldnt even mind if blogging was my life and I got paid for that,¬†but that’s unlikely to happen!!¬†

My job at the moment consists of me being the first point of call for the general public to ring to the council and pretty much 70% of the time have a go at me. I am fed up at the end of the day feeling like shit, I know it’s not me personally and I always go above and beyond trying to help them but I just feel like it’s not worth it. The managers just want their bonuses it seem by trying to get the customer to do things and I just feel so stressed all the time.

I have had a week off and I have that serious dreading Monday morning.

My ideal job would be working in the media, particularly on the social networking side of the business – possibly writing blogs, tweeting and communicating with the customers. Designing and being creative!! God I love being creative. My desk at work is so bright and creative, people think that I should be a teacher haha! I would love it to be somewhere local in Kent I could go into London, but the train tickets are so expensive.

When I am looking at job adverts, they all want people who have had “experience” or a “2:1” degree. I have no experience because I cannot get any and I have a 2:2. The reason I have a 2:2 is because I fell very unwell in my final year of studies, all my classmates thought I would get a 2:1 or +. Academically skilled I am not and yes that’s me being honest, well you read my blog you know I don’t proof read. But doing things, making things and seeing things happen I absolutely love. Hey my tutor had to change the way I produced my dissertation (which was an outline for everyone) because I was that different.

Employers just look at your CV now and its so upsetting, because I freeze up in interviews. I am no way lying on my CV to make me look bigger, I can’t bloody lie as I laugh haha.

I am just so frustrated right now, because I feel like I am worth more than some call centre operative. I have so many good grades from school, I have a degree, I have determination and passion, but I just can’t get anywhere with it.

My parents are getting the same, my poor Mum if she does send me one more job notification I may go nuts lol… it’s like yes Mum I get that in emails, I check job websites for up to 2 hours everyday and more. No mum that job isn’t relevant I have absolutely no idea what they are on about in that job description, no mum I cannot be the manager. I do love her though and her determination, I know she wants me to do well.

AAAAAH, does anyone else feel like this?

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