Trying to eat healthy.

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Eurgh I am definitely the heaviest I have ever been and with Greece holiday coming up in July this stomach needs to go!! QUICK!! I am finding it very hard so tips and tricks would be amazing, I cant do anything strenuous as my neck and nerves are messed up – which means that I wouldnt be able to move my left side (wonderful I know!!)

So I am trying to do more walking, getting into walking faster haha – lots more water, I am trying more smoothies in which my favourites definitely have to be:


God these are amazing, I have only tried the green one and the berry one so far as they are not as big in the UK at the moment and I have the mango one in the fridge in which I cannot wait to try. I am also trying not to eat after 9pm and inbetween meals which is becoming hard especially as I am a wonderful comfort eater.

I will get the home exercise DVDs out soon and last time I really enjoyed doing them, so I am hoping that I will have the same enthusiasm.

I am definitely not looking to be like a size 10 as I don’t think I have ever been a size 10 lol but I would like to be a size 14 again I felt amazing that size, currently I am size 18-20. More an 18 but I like to wear baggy clothing.

Eurgh, damn you media – but also damn you mind for eating.

Any tips would be seriously appreciated.


What is beauty to you?

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What is beauty?

Is the picture above on the right classified as beautiful, normal or thin? Or is the girl on the left curvy, normal or big?

I am guessing just looking from the photo that there are a number of things on here in which girls of today would absolutely love:

1. the tan – or the fake tan – The idea in which to look beautiful you have to be sun-kissed or brown, but not oompa loompa however you spell it. Just enough to give you the glow to make you look “healthy”. I know some people who swear by fake tan, okay it is good for nights out but do you really want to be going around smelling of digestive biscuits. We had a big topic at work today discussing sun beds, I personally object to them due to all the risks and I don’t get the point in them – very vain. Poor girl at work had a bit too long and ended up being red!

2. the fashion – The clothes between the two girls are different, one is more revealing than the other – maybe a subconscious or conscious idea to cover up or to show off in some circumstances. If you saw a “bigger” girl walking down the street with tight and less clothing I know you would judge, but what if it was the other way and the “smaller” girl would be wearing baggy clothes – would she look fashionable or too thin?

3. the thigh gap – the new fashion body trend – The trend at the moment in which young girls and I guess those who are older as well, aspire to have the gap between the thighs, this is not only represented through the media but also through celebrities. Now although I would love a gap between my thighs (yes I am a size UK 18), at what cost would this come to your health (and yes I am aware that my health is probably not at its best either). But why would you put all that strain on yourself to get that gap, what’s it going to bring you apart from having no sweating thighs, easy access to sit on bikes (haha yes that is a thought in my head) or to look amazing when you’re on your holiday and you take “that leg photo”?

4. her body – I personally after all this moaning would absolutely love to have the body on the right, like seriously. Her flat stomach and her good sized boobs, but in an ideal world it would probably take me about 5 years to look that good and even after that I would not probably look as good as her. But I am proud of my hips and my boobs, of course you want to get rid of somethings such as beautiful bingo wings, tummy and neck but I am trying. I am sure that the girl with my idealistic perfect figure would find faults in hers as well. Damn you media. 

So is beauty what we see before us, how we feel inside or both? Can we present beauty as a photo or a word or through speech. Is beauty something in which others have to categorise?

The media is its own worst enemy, it promotes the best looking bodies and idolises them and as soon as that figure puts on 1lb that’s it they’re fat, then hey presto here comes the diet stories. If you are happy with your body embrace it. If you feel like you need to lose or gain a few pounds because of confidence – do it. It’s your body, you have one life. – LIVE IT. 

I don’t know maybe it’s just me