Day 5 – music and my emotions

Welcome to day 5, can I say now that I’m already finding this challenge difficult and I’ve got 26 days left. Fuuuck. Lol.

Anyway, music… What an absolute joy. It gets you through the good times, the break ups, love, happiness and the sad times. Music can make you dance in so many ways, give you confidence and can also make so many memories.

This is a long post… sorry. I have missed out film scores as I could go on.

Ps if you see an image it will link to a video where you can listen to the music

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Drunk minds speak sober thoughts

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You know those thoughts that are under lock and key, you don’t want to think about that person, situation or those emotions.

I often find myself going back to the same thoughts and emotions each time I become tipsy, and this is where I need to surround myself with other tipsy people. I honestly don’t think that I could be the type to drink on their own, otherwise this may happen:

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It could be me walking past certain spots of town, where I know I have created a happy memory there, or a certain song…. I will become a mental mess LOL!

But drunk minds do speak sober thoughts, and the amount of times I have had to put the phone down…. STEP AWAY FROM THE PHONE CATHERINE!!!! I know I have been there far too many times, either via myself being too truthful or my friends/my crush… it can end in tears and it often does!

So what do we need to do……. we need to get drunk with other unstable emotional best friends.

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One for all and all for one – Best Friends.

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In my life I have 6 close/best girl friends whatever you wish to call them, I have 1 that comes from Uni who lives nearly 2 hours away from me, another from school who lives 6 hours away from me and 3 others who live in the town the same as me. We all have different backgrounds and we are all very different. But whatever happens, I am there for them, I stick up for them and I trust them and of course if anyone hurts them, makes them upset or anything negative towards them I will back my girl up.

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Over the past few weeks, I have realised that my girl friends have been needing people and needing extra support than usual. I feel like sometimes I cannot be in all places but I am trying my up most best.

University BFF – My Uni friend and I have gone through so much together, I have been through things with her in a complete up and down situation. We got on like a house on fire within 1 week of living together and we lived together for 3 years after that. Throughout that time we had all the best times, the laughs, the memories, the photographs and the best nights out. But then on the other hand she went through some of the worst things, she tried to commit suicide on a number of occasions, whether it was through overdose or slitting her wrists. As well as this she was being mental abused by her boyfriend who I also lived with, she became bulimic and was put on anti depressants. Whilst we were in hospital, I had to go outside and of course cry and let it all out to my family. She refused to talk to her family and I had to break it to them, me and her family are very strong. Since she has left Uni the best thing happened, she met someone who made her life the best…. 2 weeks ago she had her second little girl and could not be happier with her and the little girls…..  apart from the boyfriend.

What would you do in my position, she tells me that her boyfriend is cheating on her, she wants to leave but is too scared to, he won’t visit family or friends. I have never met him and theyve been together 2 years now. If I were living down there I honestly would tell it straight to his face, as I did with the abuser.

I am fed up of men controlling women. Women should be strong, powerful, individuals – we lead our own lives, we do not lead the life of our other half!!! 

HOME BFFS – We hardly see each other there is always an excuse, I don’t know whether its just me because I am not from around this area – but we just don’t pop around each other’s houses. We have to always meet up as a 4 not just as a 2 or a 3. It’s very frustrating. 3 of us work full time, 1 is a nurse, myself and another girl – the other girl is part time and a mummy. It is very hard, but I see other friendship groups going out all the time, clubbing etc. I want to have that back, very frustrating. I am also single along with the mummy one and its very hard to meet someone. I love these girls to pieces I have known them all 7 years plus and when we do get together its the best time, we know all our insides out and we are always there for each other. The mummy has just had an operation in London for a lung op and she unfortunately made the statement that none of us went to see her, I did state that I was off for 3 weeks unable to walk due to my back injury but I still feel like shit for not going. Ah I dunno!!!

SCHOOL BFF – She has moved to Leeds, I live in Kent… bit of a distance. All we can do is Facebook message / text each other. We had the strongest bond at school but unfortunately we live so far apart its ridiculous. But as my photo says, we don’t talk or see each other every day – but we always have each other’s backs.

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Maybe it’s just me and I am feeling lonely at the moment. But I would suggest that we do need a bit more of this in our lives, as 90’s kids I think we should definitely stick to this rule: GIRL POWER!!

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What do you think?

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2012 – The year to be proud to be a Brit

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2012, what an amazing year to be a Brit. I have never seen so many British flags that year flying in the wind in the streets all around the country. It started with one amazing welcome with what I believe to be the best New Year Fireworks display, the way in which it was timed to music, the use of British music and the sense, the feeling of proud was just overwhelming. I have watched it since and compared 2013 and 2014 and it is definitely one of the best.

I am not going to do a timeline, I will just be going through my favourite moments of the year and of course linking some youtube videos etc – so if you are interested or want some memories, let’s begin………. Continue reading “2012 – The year to be proud to be a Brit”