Celebrating my 20s – end of an chapter

Hey beauts, I hope that you had a fab Christmas and I hope that you’re still eating all of the cheese and chocolates, whilst drinking a lot of wine.

I’m currently sat writing this whilst watching Cinderella and looking at my phone every 2 minutes as my best friend is going go have a baby any minute!! I’m so excited.

As the year draws to a close, so does my 20s. This time next week i will be 30. Oh god I feel a little bit sick at the thought of it. So as I’m sat watching a Disney movie, I thought I’d reminisce over this last decade, share my favourite memories and lessons I’ve learnt.

Here we go:

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The past 5 years post… 15 facts.

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As it’s the start of a brand new month the wonderful April, I was thinking as to what has happened within the past 5 years in my life and therefore I was thinking maybe this may be an interesting post to put together and to lift some weight off my shoulders as well. It may not make any sense to you but it makes a lot of sense to me and because it’s my blog that’s how it’s gonna go! haha! 15 points.

1. I passed Uni – I got a BA Hons 2:2 in Marketing with the Entertainment Industry being my desired sector of degree. If you are at Uni now, get as much as experience as you can, take that sandwich year, take that volunteer work do anything. I got a 2:2 and I am finding it so hard to get a job, I can’t get any experience as I got a 2:2 and my job won’t let me volunteer. So if I could go back in time, really knuckle down, don’t be afraid to be a geek and just be so positive.

2. My Nan passed away – she was and she still is my favourite person ever. She made me laugh, cry with tears of laughter, gave the best hugs and she was my mums mum so there will always be that strong connection. She lived 30 minutes away from my Uni so when I had issues with my housemates or exes she took me in for the night. I miss her and think of her every day and night. Hate you cancer. The worst day of my life, I can vividly remember every minute of that day still.

3. My Dad had a brain injury – he fell down a flight of stairs and was close to death, he was in Cardiff where I live in Kent, we received a phone call at 4am in the morning saying we had to get down there now. It took months of hospital visits and rehab visits but he is 90% better now, he will never recover, but I love him.

4. Babies – two of my best friends had babies in the 5 years, 1 of them is now 5 and the other is 2 this year with a sister about to be born this week hopefully and I love them to pieces!!!!

5. House Fire – our tumble dryer set alight and the house was on fire, all of the bottom of the house was completely black. Lost so many possessions and it was just so scary.

6. My Brother – he got into Uni and is loving life right now!

7. My other Nan – at the age of 79 she recovered from cancer and ive never been so prouder of her ever.

8. I changed jobs – I worked in Morrisons for 7 years and I finally changed jobs, not sure if it’s for the better but I got out of there!

9. Lust/Love – I wish that I knew how to control the negative scared feelings towards love otherwise I would be with my best friend right now.

10. Not to be scared – at uni one of my housemates nearly every night for 2 years mentally abused my best friend, she tried to commit suicide on so many occasions. I was there for her but I have become a stronger person now and I hate that man now, if I ever had a relationship like those two… well there wouldn’t be one.

11. Pain – I found out that I had thoracic outlet syndrome, I had the operation in which they cut away muscle to release a blood vessel from the bone and the pain is there still and I am left with 2 scars on my neck which I wore scarves for over 4 months because I hated them so much. I still have a huge collection of scars incase I have down days

12. Car – I passed my driving test first time around with 1 minor – get me!!

13. Cry – I cry at pretty much anything now, I blame certain points above.

14. Friendship – I have definitely began to realise that when you get older you definitely learn who your true friends are. Those friendship groups in schools dont stick together, you wont keep in touch with everyone and of course everyone talks behind each others backs. As long as you have a few selective friends who you know you can trust 100 % that’s all you need. Dont try and get friends to be popular, dont become friends with someone because they look cool, fashionable or say “the right things”, become friends with someone because you truly feel comfortable around them.

15. Family – Family is the most important thing in the world.

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Day went from OKAY to awful in 5 minutes.

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Not only did I have to compete with my day to day job of all the hassle and negativity from the wonderful general public, I was awaiting for the clock to tick to 4pm so I could go home. I had received a voicemail from a job company wishing to speak to me about a “great job” which they had found for me and I couldn’t wait to call through to them at 4pm.

As I was walking down to my car, I saw this flash of yellow on the windscreen………… a f**king parking ticket. Great. My first ever parking ticket, felt absolutely awful but also giggled inside I thought only me! I had bought a weekly ticket but it ran out a few hours earlier and the bloody eager beaver of a parking attendant (ie jobsworth) was there waiting for me to go into the office, according to the time he ticketed me.

So, I sat down opened up the parking ticket and saw it was a £45 charge – you have got to be kidding me!! OF course I will pay but that’s just bloody ridiculous the amount of people that do not park in that carpark but because I  was there before 8 when early bird jobsworth comes around he ticketed me.

Anyway so I thought hey ho, life lesson let’s ring this lady and find out about this job to get me out of here. Rang through and she had no idea who I was and couldn’t remember why she called me (GREAT START!). She asked the usual questions “why are you looking for a job etc” I said I am trying to get out of the Customer Service Role as I want to take up Marketing and I am trying really hard to get a job in that role, which it states all throughout my CV!!!

Her reply “oh, well I have a customer service job role here” …………… FFS. *not only am I now getting annoyed with her but now I am getting annoyed more with the parking ticket*

She then asked as to when I got my degree (does she seriously not look at my CV, it clearly states there!!) I said 2010. Her next reply literally I cried all the way home about this:

“2010, that’s quite a while away isn’t it, if you haven’t had much luck with a marketing job now I doubt that you would be able to get a job in Marketing and your degree doesn’t really mean much”

I was gobsmacked. I therefore replied – “well I don’t want a customer service role, I want a marketing role it says so on my CV, how can I get a job if people are not reading my CV correctly” She then replied that she would “update my details for marketing jobs”.

Drove home crying, feeling absolutely worthless all that time and money. I am stuck in a job I hate, I can’t seem to find a way out and I am no way happy.

Today (21.02.2014) I received ANOTHER voicemail from this lady, stating ” I have found you an amazing job” I rang her back up, and she said “so when did you last apply for a job, why are you looking for a new job in customer service”. THIS IS THE SAME EXACT LADY I SPOKE TO YESTERDAY………. 

My reply “I spoke to you yesterday and I clearly said I do not want customer service roles, you said that you would put my name down for Marketing jobs.” This woman is absolutely incompetent of her job, not only does she have appalling customer service, she is forgetful, rude and disheartening.  Her reply was “Oh I am sorry, I will state that you want only marketing jobs” I again said “you said that yesterday” and put the phone down.

I seriously couldn’t care if I came across as rude. What would you do?

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Imagine if your biggest day changed?

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Think of your biggest day yet, what if that never happened, what if your path of life changed? Would you be the same person, would you still have the same friends and what would your life be like now?

Just have a think about that for a moment, we all lead the lives we lead – some plan them, some take life for a ride and some go with the flow. But what if the biggest day never happened for you, for example:

Imagine if you didn’t get the grades you had to get to go to the University you wanted, you would have gone to your 2nd or 3rd choice – you would have met different people, maybe led a different social life, may or may not have met the love of your life and you may have done a different course. After that would your life be different?

Question for you, if you have never met your closest friends you have now – do you honestly think that you would be friends with those people now? Would you have the same opinions, dislike the same people and the same things?

Strange to think isn’t it, but life is fitted for us. We of course can try to change the way we lead life, sure there will always be options on the way such as a simple “ill go for a walk instead of the bus or I will go for that drink with that person” – we are all unique but we are all the same as well.

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What’s the point in my degree :(

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I am in need of a job in which I like or even love. I have had two jobs in my life and I like them after the first few months (well to be honest my first I had for 7 years – in a supermarket), but I have just had enough of being in a job where I am not getting any satisfaction out of it.

I have a degree in marketing – specialising in the Entertainment industry, I would love to work in the media industry and of course marketing but it would just mean the world to me! I wouldnt even mind if blogging was my life and I got paid for that, but that’s unlikely to happen!! 

My job at the moment consists of me being the first point of call for the general public to ring to the council and pretty much 70% of the time have a go at me. I am fed up at the end of the day feeling like shit, I know it’s not me personally and I always go above and beyond trying to help them but I just feel like it’s not worth it. The managers just want their bonuses it seem by trying to get the customer to do things and I just feel so stressed all the time.

I have had a week off and I have that serious dreading Monday morning.

My ideal job would be working in the media, particularly on the social networking side of the business – possibly writing blogs, tweeting and communicating with the customers. Designing and being creative!! God I love being creative. My desk at work is so bright and creative, people think that I should be a teacher haha! I would love it to be somewhere local in Kent I could go into London, but the train tickets are so expensive.

When I am looking at job adverts, they all want people who have had “experience” or a “2:1” degree. I have no experience because I cannot get any and I have a 2:2. The reason I have a 2:2 is because I fell very unwell in my final year of studies, all my classmates thought I would get a 2:1 or +. Academically skilled I am not and yes that’s me being honest, well you read my blog you know I don’t proof read. But doing things, making things and seeing things happen I absolutely love. Hey my tutor had to change the way I produced my dissertation (which was an outline for everyone) because I was that different.

Employers just look at your CV now and its so upsetting, because I freeze up in interviews. I am no way lying on my CV to make me look bigger, I can’t bloody lie as I laugh haha.

I am just so frustrated right now, because I feel like I am worth more than some call centre operative. I have so many good grades from school, I have a degree, I have determination and passion, but I just can’t get anywhere with it.

My parents are getting the same, my poor Mum if she does send me one more job notification I may go nuts lol… it’s like yes Mum I get that in emails, I check job websites for up to 2 hours everyday and more. No mum that job isn’t relevant I have absolutely no idea what they are on about in that job description, no mum I cannot be the manager. I do love her though and her determination, I know she wants me to do well.

AAAAAH, does anyone else feel like this?

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